“Strangled By The Wishes of Self-Hate”…@@… Against all odds, she gave him another opportunity to re-create his self-esteem…rescuing him midstream, his was homeless, broke, and on the verge of suicide… alcohol had taken him on a ride, straight to a personal hell…and even though he was not in jail, this time, alcohol had become a small cell, enclosing him in despair, frustration, desperation, and fear…when she said that she would help, he shed a tear, vowing to never have another drink…so against all his stink, she gave him the opportunity to clean himself up…and so he started doing good, trading the bottle for a coffee cup, and trading his loneliness by taking care of a pup…and so he began to sup, from the the tender nipple of recovery…and it looked from the outside that he was embracing the discovery, of hope, and that he was appearing to cope, with life on life’s terms…but then the germs, of self-hate, ate away at his spiritual state, causing him to become restless, irritable, and discontent…and as the negative thoughts became more prevalent, constantly he started to vent, causing her to become emotionally spent, and hostile…after awhile, she could not take it anymore, and suggested that maybe he should explore, finding a sober living environment…and taking the hint, he was thrilled that he had not spent, the ten dollars she had given him earlier in the week…and as he was walking out the door, every word she had to speak, sounded Greek, as he walked three miles to the liquor outlet…and after buying the Vodka, his checks got wet, for he started to regret, his series of choices…then he started to hear all the voices, of everyone who ever called him a drunk…and so he sat on the curb, and proceeded to get drunk…here was another test, he just had to flunk, because he did not take the opportunity to get rid of the junk, that kept him sick…he felt very much the prick, as he got up saying the hell with it all…but what he did not know, was that his drunkenness was about to make him fall, right in front of a truck…and right before his passed, he was actually glad that he ran out of luck…against all odds, she gave him another opportunity to re-create his self-esteem…but when the cops told her what happened, she let out a terrifying scream, for she had left a positive pregnant test on his dinner plate…”Strangled By The Wishes of Self-Hate”

By:Nicodemus Wali